So lately I’ve been feeling really down on myself. I’ve always dealt with low self esteem, but recently it has.been so bad that I feel guilty drinking water. I’m probably the biggest shopaholic you will ever meet, and i.haven’t even wanted to.buy clothes. I have Taylor Swift pictures all over my room and I literally get sick over the fact that I don’t look that skinny. And then I started to think about why I love her so much. It’s because she is kind, and classy, and sweet, and humble, and intelligent, not because she’s thin. And then.I started to think about all of the people who love me. The love me because I’m thoughtful, and selfless, and hard working, and smart, and funny, not because I wear a large or sometimes extra large. I know everyone says beauty comes from within, but when it comes to myself I don’t believe it. That’s why I buy so much makeup and hair products and clothes. I feel like it will make me less ugly. I’m tired of hating myself. I know I shouldn’t. I know that I am 10 times more beautiful than other people because I know I’m a good person. And one day that will be enough for me.